I have been trying my best to get back into a normal routine after the holidays. I was doing so well before them by drinking green smoothies, eating a lot of veggies and fruit, getting a lot done each day and just having a general overall feeling of well-being. Well, during the holidays, I gave in to all of the junk food and boy have I paid for it.
I know that by eating unhealthy you look and feel unhealthy both physically and emotionally. But, what I didn’t know was that even if you eat really, really well 90% of the time and then go on a two to three week binge, you will feel just as bad as if you have been eating poorly 100% of the time. I wish I had realized that before I ate everything I felt like eating over the holidays.
It all started after Thanksgiving. I am not usually one to care much about junk food at all but for some reason, this year I did! I really believe that once you allow yourself to start that cycle of eating junk, it is a very hard habit to break. And, I do know that sugar is as addicting, or even more addicting, than cocaine. So, when I allow myself something with sugar, a voice in my head says to me, “oh, that was so good. I need a little more of that.” Anyone else have that same voice?
So, I thought, sure, why not? Everyone talks about moderation. I have an entirely different outlook on moderation, though. I feel if you allow yourself moderation, you are opening yourself up to unhealthy eating. If you eat sugar, as I do sometimes, it is so addicting that your brain doesn’t know the difference between moderation and none at all. All your brain knows is that sugar is addicting and it wants more, no matter how much you have.
We have done a really great job of getting most of the sugar out of the house. We no longer have table sugar but Xylitol instead. We have gotten the white flour, white rice, white potatoes, all of those white foods that turn into sugar while digesting out of the house. But, at holiday time, it is a free-for-all! And when it’s happening, I think, “it’s okay since we rarely have this stuff in our house. A little isn’t going to kill anyone.” And, no, while it won’t kill anyone, it has literally caused me to feel very down and depressed for the past three weeks.
I have not wanted to get out of bed in the morning. I have not wanted to do any of my normal, everyday things. I have felt so lazy and have stayed in my pjs, or just slummed it, quite a few days when I should have been at least living my life. I gained about 5 pounds over this holiday blue time frame and can feel it when wearing my clothes. I feel “softer” than usual, too.
I am astounded by the way I have been feeling by only falling away from my normal eating habits for a very short amount of time. And, it wasn’t like I was eating junk everyday, all day long. No, it was just some here and there that really put me over the edge.
I have a love affair with chips – potato chips, corn chips, any kind of chip. On Christmas Eve, I ate probably an entire bag of Gordon Foods potato chips by myself all before eating dinner. Those chips were soooo good! They were so good that I literally could not stop eating them. I was actually glad to see the bowl empty as my daughter and I polished off the entire bowl by ourselves. When asked if I wanted a refill on the chips, I politely said, “no thank you,” although what I really wanted to say was, “yes, please, hurry and fill this bowl up!”
Don’t get me wrong. I do try not to eat a lot of sugar because I know how addicting it is. I have chocolate on hand in the house for right before my period. I usually like 3 or 4 pieces of chocolate a couple times before that time of the month and then move on. But, during this binging time, I ate so much chocolate.
I really like drinking red wine. It used to be that I would enjoy a glass a couple times a week. During this sugar-overload period, I have had wine a lot. It has a lot of sugar and again, is very addicting because of it. So, I have also noticed that my sleep has been interrupted because of drinking alcohol way more than usual.
This really got me thinking about all of the people who drink and eat so much sugar as a regular part of their diet. No wonder there are so many overweight and obese adults and children now. I am thankful that we do not drink soda in our home. We cut that out about a year ago. If we still drank it, even though I only had half a can a week, I feel like I would have indulged in soda during this holiday blues time and that would just be one more habit for me to break.
If you are feeling the way I am feeling – depressed, sluggish, lazy, untone, gross, etc, try to eliminate some of the sugar from your diet. Take baby steps and you may just find that you will feel a whole lot better! And a great side-effect of less sugar is that you will lose weight!